Wednesday, December 19, 2007

* The greatest curse of LOVE is WANTING instead of NEEDING.

I've been wanting 'them' so much. Would you blame me? I do not know what I need. How could I?


*** bla bla..nothing to say..Hate the days I wasted on silly things but never regret them.


Sunday, December 16, 2007


Loving you is planning suicide...

that's why im so scared..
you're a deadstar,
you should be! you ought to be!
and the fear would be:
you're ressurection..
then maybe,
you're not the deadstar,
but my feelings to you.
this should'nt be,
this would'nt be.

Note: this is not for you, my Valentine,
this is for that 'someone' before you...
I'm the one who follows you
when everyone else won't,
Pull you up, and help you down.
The one who'll drain all its reasons to live,
and offer it to you if you're running out of it.
The one who sees all your mistakes and differences,
yet finds you absolutely amazing.
Just in case you want to know,
it could be me.

Thursday, December 13, 2007


Cant get enough of it!

ive been listening for this song for, like, 10 times this day..

and i juz keep on repeating it..

and it's still stucked in my ears that's why i decided to make this post..hehe..

i love the song especially the first line...

"why you so scared???????"

Can relate? I was scared to have him that's why I lost him, haha.. oh well, that's life.. :D


Beyond my physical desire,

beyond my emotional craving,

beyond my mental control.

It seems like...

It's my soul's obsession.
i looked at you,
that look was profound,
you noticed me standing
yet never noticed me bleeding.
How dare you stare into my eyes
without saying a word.
How dare you master the art
of perfect killing.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007


Love to Hate, Hate to Love

People who say this just show how scared they are to fall in-love.
Because they give their best and they know they dont deserve the gift of pain from the very person they love.
They are afraid to get hurt,
But they madly long for true love to come their way,
Though they dont want to show it....
Why you so scared?
Just maybe because you're so scarred.

*** based from personal experience ;P correct me if i made so many assumptions..***


He is my obsession
He smiles
But questions are drawn in his eyes,
He doesn't attend his classes regularly
Maybe some would sa he isnt friendly
He posts as he says he's one minority
But I can feel, and I just love, his vanity.
He wears simple shirts and jeans and
shoes or slippers trying to look dirty,
But damn, he looks like a stellar angel
on disguised simplicity.
What he is not is what I don't have to need,
I'm just a poor girl who was amazed on what he did,
He writes, I read, and then again he writes as I read,
I oppose, I rebel, but I still follow
when he takes the lead.
Everyhing I am is not enough to let me be on his side,
I stop my self wanting to be with him in shadow suicide,
I tried to turn away and stop wanting
but it hurts more if I hide,
Because he won't be there to find me
with the truths that I lied.

I want him, for once I know I'm sure of that,
What he wants is someone I am not

You know how it feels like, what it is to crave, right?
I don't have to ask him to give any light
Coz if we collide in darkness just to win the fight
I'm willing to surrender myself all throughout the night.

He - my obsession.
There are lot of things that I want to mention
But for now for a better direction,
I'll end up my hidden invitation.

*damn, my valentine, help me forget you :(


Sunday, October 28, 2007


song inside my ears today ..
or should i say tonight?
no, today..
it's 2:28 am..
startin a blog with ESCAPE THE FATE in my ears..
Not good enough for truth in cliche..

crash my car to your window..