Monday, August 24, 2009

Drawn in MSPaint


MAY 17, 2009 (see the post)
"Where am I? What am I doing here? Who am I? Who are you? Why are you here? Where will you take me? Why? Why? Is this true? If it's just a dream, it's the sweetest of all. If it'll stop just when I'm enjoying it the most, I'll go back to the dungeon, wishing no prince would ever save me again just to lock me in again. But then Im holding on to all the things he said. Until when would he mean it? I do not know. But it felt so real. If those were lies then, perhaps, lies are true. If I have to take these chances, I want to take these with you."


She cannot stand it anymore, she's falling out. It's 4 o'clock in the morning, it's starting to get light, but for her it's getting dimmer. Just the thought of him makes her confused and tired. So she texted him goodbye. She told him her formula goodbye words, "I never wanted to hurt you but now I did... blaaaa...". Now, she lives her life like she did before he came - cold and bitter.

I am starting to bleed, as he starts to recover.
I am starting to fly, while he still enjoys the crawl.
I am starting to remeber, while he forgets everything we had.

I lost you, but not as much you lost yourself and not as much as I lost mine. Friendship could still be instill in our dying bond. This is not to ignite any flame, but to make the days a lot easier, at least for me. Why be friends? Why not??

Until this day, dawn has never come your way. This is because you turned your back from the horizon. You are not in silence, you are in total doom. And I - am in my dungeon again. Hope to see you soon.

P.S. there are thoughts that has to be published,
or else it'll consume you..

Monday, August 17, 2009

Harder than you know
Drawn in MSPaint

After 2 months,
I attended a Roman Catholic mass again
Last sunday.

I felt more unsure of life.

By the time that we have to offer a "PEACE" to each other,
I held back, I really held back
Because I cannot say "Peace be with you"
Because I cannot give what I do not have
No peace.. no peace...

I have never been with the person that I really want
I've been with the people that wants me
But I don't want them enough.

I am tired of being what I SHOULD be
I just wanna be what I want me to be
But they will get hurt - mom, dad, bro..

I am lost.
And that mass just made me realize
How hard it would be to come back home.

Lord, are you there?


Friday, August 7, 2009


Drawn in MSPaint

It's better to have love and lost, than to have never loved at all - St. Augustine

It's not how long we held each other's hand
What matters is how well we loved each other
It's not how far we travelled on our way
Of what we found to say
It's not the spring you see, but all the shades of green

It's not how long I held you in my arms
What matters is how sweet the days together
It's not how many summertimes we had to give to fall
The early morning smiles we tearfully recall
What matters most is that we loved at all.

What matters most is that we LOVED at all.
(And I hope that wouldn't end there)

You have to go and find yourself
Are you becoming someone you're not supposed to be?
Do you still recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you?

You say you're leaving me
As I look at you walking away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know i'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you (Until when? I already told you)

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time as I go somewhere
I picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

I can't get close if your not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul to bear
I can't fix you, i can't save you
It's something you have to do

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Or if you want me walk with you
As you look for your way home,
You can come back to me.

*the lyrics were modified to suit my emotion*
What Matters Most - Kenny Rankin
Come Back to Me - David Cook


Wednesday, August 5, 2009


Ito ay kwento ng isang bata. Ang tawag ng mga tao sakanya ay "Ibil". Tama, siya si Ibil. Kakaiba siya dahil gusto siyang busugin ng madaming tao pero ayaw niya. Nag-aalala tuloy si Baterply sa kanya, kasi baka mangayayat siya at mamatay sa gutom. Hmmm.. Si Baterply ay dating kaibigan ni Ibil. Eh, bigla nalang sinabi ni Ibil na "Ayaw na kitang maging kaibigan". Pero si Baterply ay di susuko kasi sabi ni Ibil dati "Wag tayong susuko". Eh, sumuko na si Ibil kasi daw nawalan na siya ng gana.. Sure? Kilala na ni Baterply si Ibil. Pero mas kilala pa rin ni Ibil ang sarili niya. Pero alam ni Baterply na nawawala nanaman siya sa sarili niya. Masakit man tanggapin ang katotohanan may mga bagay na sadyang nakakabadtrip. Gusto pa rin tulungan ni Baterply si Ibil. Ngayon, mas naiintindihan na niya si Ibil.

Tingin ng mga tao kay Ibil ay ibil talaga. Pero may kukunting tao na hindi ganun ang tingin sa kanya. Isa na dun si Baterply,pati na rin ang mga pinaka malalapit na kaibigan ni Ibil na sila Andu, Bebotenga at Cheerwen.

Ayaw ni Baterply isuko si Ibil kasi gusto nyang wag sumuko kaya walang pakialamanan. Atsaka MATIGAS ANG ULO ni Baterply.

Baterply: "Haaay, Ibil, wag kang malumbay"
Ibil: "Leave me alone!"
Baterply: "Ay, waw, english speaking..Hhihi..."

Pakiusap lang ni Baterply sa mga tao, wag husgahan agad si Ibil. Di niyo alam ang lahat ng pinagdaanan niya at pinagdadaanan niya. Wag kayo loser okay? Haha.. Masaya si Baterply dahil atleast nakilala niya si Ibil, may pagka-Buloy nga lang talaga si Ibil. Hindi niya siguro naalala ang sinabi niya na "It's better to have loved than to never have at all". Siguro sa susunod na century malalaman na ni Ibil na dapat si Baterply ang kaibiganin niya habang buhay. Kaso lang baka mabingwit ng mangingisda si Baterply. Oh well, ganyan talaga ang buhay. Weather - weather lang.

Mabait si Ibil, mabait siya. Kung nawala man ang apoy na pumapaso sa kanya kay Baterply, wala na tayong magagawa. Hanggang kailan siya tatakbo palayo sa pag-ibig? Hanggang kailan niya iihipan ang dagat kung saan siya naglalayag at tatawagin nanaman niya itong bagyo? At kung mabasa niya ito, mainitindihan niya kaya?

Baterply: "Ohhhh.,.. Ibil, salamat.... Usap tayo ulet next time.. Dapat maging frens tau.. olryt? ^^,"

(Nalulungkot lang talaga si Baterply kasi lilipad siya nang di kasama si Ibil, may pakpak naman ERA si Ibil! Mas malaki pa nga pakpak niya kay Baterply. Wakoko ^^,)