Friday, September 18, 2009

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What I am NOT

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I am not a genie but how I'd love to grant ALL your wishes.
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"Wake Up! He's not worth it!"
I've heard this line from my girl friends a hundred times already. They always say that I always choose the wrong person to love. But is there such thing as "wrong person"? Is there such thing as "the right one"? I believe that my love would make them the right one and my love would make them worth it.

Let's remember, God loves us so much even though we are NOT WORTH IT. Not because of, but inspite of..

Now I feel sorry for myself for I am feeling I am falling away from God. I doubt His existence (again) and question the things that "He could've planned ahead for me". I have a lot of "what if, if, if, if He's existing, if He's not then why...blaaaaaa....)

I have only two options: to believe in Him or to cease believing. If I do, it gives me even the slightest comfort, if I don't it makes me feel more lost. So I'll choose what makes me feel better.

I don't know, I am just so lost. I cannot make this on my own, I cannot find the way home alone. I was damaged by the fall, but, still, here I am, feeling stronger, I must be invincible.


I am still keeping my roots firm, these roots are planted in the hands of God. He's the only One that I could ever trust. I cannot even trust myself! Humans - they are all broken and blind. Angels - not sure of them. Evil - never mind. I don't know.... *sobs... I don't know... Still, I pray...



God doesn't command what he hates to do
But why does He let these things happen to me? I'm not Job.
Are you sure He let these things happen to you? Or you invoked these things?
These happenings will make you stronger.
I am strong! What now? Do He want me to give up?
No. He wants you to hold on.
I am holding on! What now?
There's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.
Liar. The rainbow doesn't have an ending.
O_O .... blaa .. bla...


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  1. Mel Avila Alarilla said... September 19, 2009 at 12:30 AM

    Hi Jet,
    You seem to be lost in your cacophony of homespun philosophies of life. Before you can have the answers to your questions, you must start from where you are now. It is exactly the time and place that God ordained for you. You may feel that you got the wrong end of the deal but that is farthest from the truth. We reap what we have sown. We were created by God for a special purpose in life. Until you discover that purpose and live by it, you can never have that fulfillment and peace in your life. You can start that discovery by surrendering your life to Jesus Christ by accepting Him as your Lord and savior. Then the Holy Spirit will awaken your dead spirit and you will experience the born again experience. Then you can start your real travel with the Lord. I will pray for you. Thanks for the post. God bless you always.

  2. jet MUSIC said... September 21, 2009 at 7:00 PM

    thank you sir... I will re-read your comment until I fully understand it..for now I'm just so lost ..but I'll be fine..thanks for the comment sir, I will surely take note of everything you said.. ^_^