Tuesday, November 29, 2011

But ofcourse!

I always knew it, kapag gagawa ka ng tama madaming sacrifices, processes and everything! Mahirap.

I was a contact center agent from somewhere in Taguig when I decided to leave my post for a Change. I did not report for duty for two days mainly because of schedule and location issues. I know it wasn't right to just disappear that way so I (with my fiance) went back to the office to formally resign. However, our team captain said he can't receive and approve our resignation because we should've had 15 - days notice upon leaving. This means we are considered AWOL unless we render 15 days of work. I know I did something wrong but how come that my friend, of the same company,  is approved for her immediate resignation?

We could've not wasted our time by going there and filing a formal resignation. We could just disappear but we chose to do it because it was the right thing to do.

This was just frustrating but at the same time relieving because we don't have to commute to work for more than 1 hour a day on a graveyard shift. It was so traumatic. I know, I should have prepared myself because it was a contact center, it's normal to have night shifts, blaa, that I could'nt have the same schedule as my fiance, blaaaa.

Anyway, it's over. We're on a formal AWOL. :P
Kudos to the company and to all of its employees.
We apologize for the inconvenience.


Thursday, November 3, 2011

Monday, September 19, 2011


If there's one thing that I learned from our job hunting, it's NOT GIVING UP on anything you really (really, really) want. We want to land a job where we could work together so we'll stick on it. There were lots of offers, lots of jobs we rejected but those are the consequences of wanting to be together.

Friday, August 5, 2011


My fiancĂ© and I are huge fans of ice creams especially those in 800 ml containers. We’re always store – hopping in search of ice cream flavors (because one store doesn’t have all the flavors that we want all the time). However, lately, I’ve been losing my freakin’ faith in some grocery stores in Zamboanga City due to spoiled ice cream products we discovered. We found out two stores here that sells pre – opened ice creams. They are: LB Supermarket and Joan’s Pharmacy (Nunez branch). So how did we know that the ice creams were pre – opened? Because, they were.

Once, we bought an 800ml Selecta ice cream in LB supermarket. When we reached home and opened it, we were surprised to see that it looked like, kinda, not normal. There were these weird frozen bubbles inside. It looked like someone had eaten them, failed to finished the whole container and put it back inside the freezer. It looked gross but we ate it  anyway because we love ice creams! :P It still tasted good anyway. Days after that, we went back to LB Supermarket to buy again because they have wide array of ice cream flavors there. Before buying, we checked the 800 ml Selecta ice creams, opened them and compared them to each other. Some ice creams are already half the container! Well, I don’t know what caused it but those ice creams are vulnerable, they don’t have safety seal that says “don’t eat if seal is broken :P”.

Then, just last week, we went to Joan’s Pharmacy Nunez ext branch,they have very poor customer service (no offense). We bought a Nestle 800ml ice cream there. We are confident enough that they weren't wrecked because Nestle products are sealed. But, when we arrived home, we found out that there’s something wrong with the seal. It freakin looked broken and re-attached. When we opened the container, there was this same disgusting ice cream appearance. We were so disheartened. Just kidding. We were not just disheartened, we were cursing and delirious. How could they do this to us! Schoopid ice cream! Anyway, we still ate it and still tasted good. But we know it’s only 3/4 of what we should’ve consumed. Anyway, that’s life, we learn lessons from everything. Next time we buy, we know we have to be smarter and check the products first. So, you should do the same. Never trust stores completely. Check the if the seal is broken and expiry date. If the products looked suspicious and busted, drop 'em.

Well, I don’t mean no harm to the stores and brands mentioned above. I just want to share my experience. These things are real, no fabrication, although I cannot present any evidence because the products were already consumed. I am not really sure if those ice creams were spoiled but they just don’t look normal, as in the normal ice creams that we usually buy from other stores.

Anyway, you may buy genuine ice creams from these stores:
Cecile’s Pharmacy (all branches)

I don’t say that these are the only good stores but these are where we've bought good ice creams.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

For the first time, I'm seeing my future more clearly and more detailed. We will go to the "main land" to work, save money, get married, build businesses, buy our cars and make our dream home. God willing, if these things will go well, the picture above will most likely be the same style as our home's living room. :)


Monday, June 20, 2011

I'm surprised to know, by accident, that my ever dear loving love has a blog! The blog contains some of the poem he wrote for me. The first poem he wrote was for me but he didn't post it there. You may check out his blog here: http://noobcyclops.blogspot.com/. I didn't think he wants to expose the site because it is like baring him. But what's the point of putting it up there if no one will read it? :P [If he asks me to remove this post, I will.]
I'm so flattered that Xtian made me a poem. You know, he's not the kind of guy that writes about something because he just thought of it. Most writers put up a story because they think it would be nice to do so. Girls write a lot but most of their writings are empty pieces of paper filled with good words scanned from the dictionary aided by the thesaurus. Xtian - he's not a frequent writer, especially not a poet. He's not gonna write it unless he really feels it. What amazes me more is that I'm the the first and only woman he dedicated a poem for.

We're heading one year now. This is my first time to be with someone for a year because I'm the kind of girl that cannot be contained, not until I met him. I want to spend years with him. I always thought I'll never have it but he came... He came to me like a dawn through the night, shining like a sun. I knew it, it's him. We're grown ups. We know what we're doing. This is not the highschool - college thing. This is real.

Ugh, enough of the drama.

This is the poem he made for me:

To love you,
Is all I want to do.
To be with you,
Is a wish come true.

Been looking for you,
Since day one 'till two.
Met some up to day twenty-two,
But none of them was you.

You're mine now and forever,
I'm with you in whatever,
Let's make this commitment on pen and paper,
With GOD as our witness to keep us together.

 This is not our wedding invitation. Though we already finished designing it, I'm not gonna post it yet. 
This is one of our design inspiration which is far from the final design we did together.

Sunday, May 29, 2011


Last Saturday, we attended my fiance's cousin's wedding reception. Things went absolutely great there! The wedding and bridesmaid's gown designs are great. Not to mention the lovely theme, yellow, which is our favorite color. The best thing is the TOSS during the reception. Wedding garter and Bouquet tosses are wedding traditions worldwide with different interpretations. That time, the tosses were made by stop - dance. The bachelors (first) and spinsters are called in-front to form a circle and pass around the garter and bouquet, respectively. Whoever holds the garter when the music stops is considered the winner. Well, with fate and destiny amongst us, my fiance got the garter and I got the bouquet, it was the sweetest! I was thinking that it could be a signal to them that we are, really, getting married soooooon. That event excites us to get married really soon. He told me that he wants to get married at dawn, madaling-araw in Tagalog, because it marks a new day, a new beginning for all of us. It was so sweet. But, wait, a 5:30 am wedding? I've got to wake up at 3am! We already have a vision of how it's going to be. All we have to do, first, is tell our parents about it. (It's not like they read my blogs). Then we have to set out the formal plan according to our budget. I'm excited with my gown! Ha!Ha!

Spoiler alert:
Year: 2012
Church: Sinunuc (the glass church above the hill overlooking the sea, isn't it sweet? :D)
Theme: yellow and yellow and yellow and gold :D
Car: Volkswagen White Beetle :D

My fiance and I


Thursday, May 26, 2011


This thought just popped out of my mind: I hate b*tches because they have the luxury of doing evil, bad and real stupid stuffs without being mocked because people understand they are born that way and they have to forgive them with it. What's more irritating is that they aint beautiful. I mean, cmon, mahn, fix it.

When I look around me, I see a lot of b*tches. *sighs* It's not like I'm kinda jealous or something. I woe them. Why couldn't they be less irritating? Why couldn't they have proper brains? Oh, snap, sorry for this rant. I may be just another b*tch for some and the chances that they would care if they irritate me is the same as the chances I would care if I irritate them - very slim chance. Anyway, let's go back to what we're doing now. :)


Tuesday, May 24, 2011


I'm the one who's going to make our invitation cards. I have, like, 5 designs now and none satisfied me so far. Anyway, I've got to browse for more design inspirations. Wish me luck dudes! :)


Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Chastity is the virtue which excludes or moderates the indulgence of the sexual appetite. It is a form of the virtue of temperance, which controls according to right reason the desire for and use of those things which afford the greatest sensual pleasures.

It's sad to say but the virtue of chastity is the most ignored virtue in the world. Look around you. I bet you know people who's committed to pre-marital sex, there are many of them! (Violations also include pornography, rape, etc.) Just to make my point clear, I don't condemn them. I condemn the sin, not the sinner. I also DONT GENERALIZE. My points are accordance to what I see and those I know.

Lust (or something like it) is a violation of the virtue of chastity. My friend, aged 22 years old, is a victim of this sin. Same story as the rest of the girls I know - they got pregnant before marriage, they didn't get married afterward, they broke up with the guy and the guy didn't support them. Just seeing them makes me wonder why are there still girls who engaged themselves into this situation. I mean, c'mon, be wise. If they really LOVE you, they won't do it to you even before they brought you to Church. That's the teaching to us, be chaste, no giving of virginity until marriage. Love is patient, Love is kind. In doing this, you see that both of you are not patient and the guy is not being kind. He's destroying a very important part of you without Blessing.

Sometimes, I feel pity for their kids. My friends are still young and parenting is something they're not prepared for. I know that because I see and hear their cries. But I also see their immeasurable happiness brought by their babies. Indeed, babies are angels, they are gifts from above.
Anyway, this is just a random rant. Chastity should be practiced by both men and women, it is not just the girl's responsibility. Parents should be the one to inject this value to their kids. They should also be their role model. They should be chaste in their words, actions and even clothing. 

Okay, whatever. This is just a random rant brought by immense case of pregnancy - hit - and - run from my highschool batch. There are only about 3 or 4 of us who's, you know, very old - fashioned. But I love it this way. This makes me feel so different from the rest of anyone else. :)

Okay, okay, enough. Enjoy the rest of the day and be chaste :)

Sunday, May 1, 2011

This is one weird, scary and somehow funny sign from Ateneo de Manila University (ADMU). I don't know exactly where this sign is posted. My Tiani went to ADMU last week for a seminar and saw this sign. I searched over the internet what this sign could mean but I cannot find an article for it. This appears to me as a caution for ghost attack, if not zombie attack. Ha-ha!

Someone told me that this sign was bought from Australia. I searched the net to know where this sign originated and found out it was a custom - made sign by Humerus, based in California. The sign was primarily made just for fun. It posts cautions for people AND zombies crossing. However, the sign in ADMU gives a (somehow) different message. XD

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

 Photo sources: 
http://imageworldblog.blogspot.com/2010/02/black-roses-images.html & 

Today is April 27, 2011

Tomorrow is not a day. It is nothing. It doesn't exists or even if it does, it will be forgotten like it never happened at all. For four months now I've constantly seen and touched an angel. There's not a day that I don't hold his hands. At night, I held him close to me and whisper to his ears I love him. The reply? It's the sweetest. Tell me how could something exist if it doesn't have an importance? Tomorrow is no importance at all. It will be like a bug on the street that no one notices. It will be like a mosquito that, after a millisecond of landing on my fair skin, will be squashed to death. It will just pass by, motionless.

It will be the day not spent with him, just one day, a 24-hour of agony. It will be dark like a night. The day after that will be dawn... afterwards, sunrise. It will be filled with happiness because I will see him again. That day, I will touch his hair, hold his hands and I will tell him how much I miss him. The very moment that he arrives, it will be noon. The sun will shine up in the sky like how all sunny days are portrayed. Even though it will set, I'll be having no fear of the night because I know that he's here and he will whisper to me words I'd love to hear.

Or, perhaps, tomorrow is a lazy day.
No, it's not easy tonight..neither tomorrow night..  
I miss him so much.
I love him so much.
From the deepest, strangest and wildest muscle in my heart,
I swear this beats only for him.
xoxo Tiani xoxo

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

This  would  give you guides on how to control your emotions towards your better-half,   friends,  office-mates  and  all  the  people  around  you,  especially  your "boss". The rules of practicing  "ugaling langit, ugaling  kaaya-aya":
#1  Ang naunang magalit ang may karapatang magalit. Pag naunahan ka na ng  galit niya, tumahimik ka na lang muna.

#2  Walang  taong  nag-aaway  mag-isa.  Pag hindi kayo sumagot o pumatol,  titigil din daw ang taong nakikipag- away sa inyo.

#3 Ang taong galit, 'bingi.' If someone is angry, wala raw pinakikinggan  so   don't try to explain and fight back. Hindi ka niya iintindihin dahil  wala siyang naririnig kundi ang sarili nya.

 #4  Ang  taong  galit, 'abnoy.' Ayon sa pastor, Biblical daw ito because  the  Lord  said  when  He was crucified, "Father, patawarin mo sila dahil  hindi nila alam ang kanilang ginagawa."  Modern  term  for these kinds of people are abnoys, so you better not get  angry para huwag kang matawag na abnoy.
You  should  also know and realize that the persons who make your day bad  are jewel, because you need them for you to mature.  Hangga't andyan daw sila at kinaiinisan mo, ibig sabihin, immature ka pa.  God  will  not take away those people; it's for you to take away your bad  feelings towards them.  You'll  know  na  mature  ka  na  pag  dumating 'yung time na hindi ka na  naiinis  sa  mga taong ito because you have learned to accept them and to  have patience with them.  

#5 Finally, the best part of this is to tell yourself na, because of this

person "I  will  grow  mature"  and that DAHIL SA CONTRIBUTION NIYA SA MATURITY MO, KUKUNIN DIN SYA NI LORD (Hopefully... SOON!)


Monday, April 25, 2011

Do you believe in incarnation and reincarnation? I DON’T. Not until I met him.

Last time we met, he’s got wings and I’ve got roots that were stuck in a muddy soil. They call me wildflower but I didn’t even know what that meant. So there he was, flying from one flower to another. He always came my way but he never stopped to greet me. All I can do is I look up on him as he covered the sun with his beauty. Time passed by and I withered. I have not seen him for a long time before I died and I’ve heard he already went to the next stage, ahead of me. This stage cannot be accessed by any other means but death. So I laid my head back down and surrendered myself to the soil. It ate me but it can’t eat the soul that’s dedicated to him. I promised to myself that on the next stage, I’ll be a good girl so I could gain him.

It was after 20 years or so when I met him again. At first I didn’t recognize because of the absence of wings. We were sanctified member of an eminent colony that gathers 8 hours a day and 7 times a week in a structural box. For some time, we talk, we walk, we chat and we laugh. We do the same stuff such as producing miscalculated artifacts to make people lazy. We make them sit on their chairs as the package we give them will do the work. As time passed by, I slowly realize that it was him. “I finally found him”, I said to myself. This time I could walk to him, I’ve got feet. This time I could talk to him, I’ve got mouth. This time he could look at me looking at him, I’ve got eyes.

I’ve been a really nice girl so now I’ve claimed my prize. He came to me, took me in his arms and declared that it was the greatest day of his life. I told him that every day is the greatest; every day that we're going to  spend together would be the greatest. Even the days we'll spend apart would be greatest too, because our bodies may be apart but our souls are tied dedicatedly.

So if you wonder how it came to be? I’ll just say that I’ve been such a good girl and he’s been such a good guy that we are allowed by the Greatest to claim our prize.

Monday, April 18, 2011

I'm pretty much addicted to Dilbert comics now. I've been reading strips everyday and have watched its TV episodes that my office mate downloaded. While reading its September 9, 2004 strip this day, I saw a link to Widgets so I clicked it and grabbed a widget. It's really cooool! See the widget on the right side of this page? I loved it. Grab one for your blog now! CLICK HERE

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Thursday, April 14, 2011

Last time, I posted about the Il ber far niente - the beauty of doing nothing. Yes, it's beautiful to do nothing especially when you're feeling lazy. It is beautiful to just lay on your bed with your loved one, doing nothing at all, or maybe just talking about something, about anything under the sun. But then I also think that there's a beauty in SAYING NOTHING. Sometimes, some things are better left unsaid especially if you don't know exactly what to say. Words are confusing, words are misleading, and even though I am familiar with almost every word in the dictionary, words don't come that easy on me. It's the composition that actually sets the mood. If I don't get it right, I might ruin something.

BUT, saying nothing for a very long period of time is a NO. It's what you call silent treatment. Instead of treating something, you're making it worse because you don't face it. There's always something you've got to say about something.

What you have to do is to think - THINK! If  you don't have anything good to say, just shut up. If you don't think you're not ready to say anything, shut up. But don't be lazy, work on "being ready" to say something. Closure about a topic or scene is a must. Say what you need to say 'cause it's better to say too much than never to say what you need to say.

P.S. Tell your loved ones you love them. Tell it everyday. This is the most thing that shouldn't go in silence.

Friday, March 18, 2011

I've been browsing for wedding ideas from time to time and I've already stumbled on some great stuffs from somewhere, anywhere. The problem is, I can get so forgetful most of the time that I tend to lose the picture in my head of what I want, where I saw the wedding gown that I'd like to wear, what give - aways, what pre - nup theme, etc. The solution is not writing it on paper because it can easily be displaced. In a digital era, the more pro-active solution is blogging it! Now, see how technology could help you in some other way. XD

So... Here's my wedding draft where I'd pick my wedding ideas when I'll actually and formally plan it.

Let's start with the gowns:

Marchesa gown


Ring bearer:

Ring holder:

Other helpful sites:
Top 8 ways to plan a wedding on tight budget
The Church wedding: how to go about it
David's Bridal
Bride and Breakfast

That's all for now, I'll be updating this post if ever I saw some good ideas that I could use. :)
Spoiler alert: The big wedding will be in one year's time. :)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

I celebrated my birthday last February 19 in Woodland Resort, Zamboanga City. But before we went there, I got an amazing surprise from my love, Tiani, in my apartment.

He went to the apartment carrying an arranged balloon. I was so surprised! I didn't know he could be supper sweet and romantic. I mean, he's always thoughtful, caring, sweet and romantic but this thing is awesome! He said that he's supposed to wear the Spongebob party hat, knock on my door and shout "Surprise!". But then, this didn't happen because I opened the door even before he knocked. He can't blame me! I've been waiting for him for hours so when I heard him coming, I immediately opened the door! :D

He also gave me a love letter he personally wrote(or should i say typed), designed and printed. What he wrote there brought me to tears, literally! I'm overjoyed! It's amazing because he kept the letter simple yet very real. I felt that it was coming straight from his heart, it was so touching. Another best thing is that I know I'm the first and only girl that he'll ever treat this way. I am so happy!

After that, we went to the resort. I've been surprised, again, that he bought a cake for me. I didn't prepare for a cake because he said so, but then, he's got a cake for me! And it was spongebob! He's so amazing. :D

I love my fiance, my man :)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011



My YES means YES.

This is another official milestone in my life. When the feeling is this strong and happiness is this much, you just don't want it to end, you will not let anything ruin it and you beg God to please bless and help you. I'm praying to God everyday of my life that He'll let us to be together always, help us to overcome trials this life can offer and help us to make each other happy.

This is it. This is really it. :)

To God be the glory.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Dear Tiani,
I know I dont have big boobs nor big butt, neither a model-type body. 
I'm not tall, I can't afford tall shoes or tall sandals and I won't get any taller. 
I won’t even get sexier through time. 
My hair isn't always in place and my clothes aren't always in fashion. 
I easily get irritated sometimes and I start petty fights without reasons. 
I can get so stubborn, insecure and bossy, we know that. 
I can say harsh words, curse a lot and even raise my voice at you. 
I can get jealous with non-sense things and you may not understand my reasons at all, ever. 
My smile isn't perfect and it's not even the cutest. 
My skin isn't flawless and it's not the softest. 

But if you stay with me, I promise to treat you as my king. 
I promise to give you the best of me, every little BEST part of me.. everything.. everything... 
And these little things - they won't even matter.



Wednesday, January 26, 2011


You saw me standing there
with a dirt on my face,
mud on my feet
and scars on my knees.

Instead of walking away,
you hold my hand
and whispered to me
things I wanted to hear.

How could I ever repay you?
You saved me from the dungeon
Rescued me from the dragon,
Redeemed me from my self.

If it's not too much to ask
Could I love you from dawn till dusk?
Till night to sunrise again,
I want you to be my man.

at the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet


Tuesday, January 4, 2011

At Dakak Park Beach Resort
Dapitan City, Zamboanga del Norte

I was surprised when I watched Eat, Pray and Love when it was mentioned that Il bel far niente is an Italian expression and, I think, a tradition.This phrase means "The beauty of doing nothing". The book says that the Italians mastered this beauty.

I remembered my past in an instant,how I should work hard in my early days in a private school full of rich brats and braggers. I also remembered the highschool years and college years when I have to stay on top. But on the latter years of those years, I stopped.

I stopped crawling through the tree to reach "the top" because I realized that there's nothing there. Instead, I rested on the grass and ate. I crawled on the leaves and ate. I rested my self because I thought that I have to, without knowing why. That moment felt like making a cocoon, I thought of how beautiful it was. People looked at me and asked why I'm doing nothing in my life, that I was living an easy life of party (which is not true). They didn't realized that I was just contemplating, meditating throughout the day and night. Those moments kept my sanity. I was at ease and, somehow, happy. I was contented.

I thought it was being lazy but I proved to my self that it was exquisite to do that. I rested my worries in life though, sometimes, it comes back to me. When I'm hurt, I cry. When I'm mad, I don't speak. I run to some place and do nothing. During vacation, I rest, I do nothing.

Restlessness only comes when I worry in life but I'm decided to divert this pessimism. After a long hardwork, it is best to rest. It's much better if you rest with your loved one and both of you gets a chance to enjoy Il bel far niente, like I did with Tiani on our holiday trip. :)

Sunday, January 2, 2011

I do.