Monday, October 29, 2012

I have a curse. My curse is that I can build up a short story or a novel everytime I take a bath or go to sleep but I can never seem to write them.

My mind wanders, my mind is eager for a story, all are beautiful, all are exhilarating.

Now that I am entering a new phase in my life, I sometimes feel restless. It is like opening a door without knowing what's behind, I may take a clue but it's not enough.

I also need rest, have been restless for almost a year now because of this thing called work. Sometimes I feel kinda little stupid. Sometimes I don't understand my self, why I feel bad now when I know it was my idea. I could've just stayed in my safe ground and play with the breeze but I know I would get bored.

No regrets! Everything is just going so well. Only few more months to go and we're gonna fly home, this time it's for real. Sometimes I get anxious of what lies ahead, but hey, I know who holds tomorrow and it will all gonna be fine. :)

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Last time, I made up my mind of leaving this blog because I don't always blog that much anymore, there's nothing to blog about (really). Right now I'm keeping things in private.

We'll anyway, it has been some time and I'm being more stable, happier and contented. It's been two years and one month since my romantic inclination with this person called Xtian. :))

It was like, this is the real life, this aint no fantasy I have since a kid that I'd fall in - love with a guy who works at night to kill people. There's a slim chance for that and if ever it happened I would've got bored.

This time, it's reality, I got bored - yes but at the same time - NO. This is me at my finest.

Back to the blog - yah, I can't leave it for now, this is a big part of me where I spent almost half of my life (it seems like). In case you wonder what's my new blog would be, it's

Have a happy life and see you soon Zamboanga!

Friday, June 8, 2012


Sometimes I feel insufficient, sometimes I feel so weak. I want a perfect life where we don't have to worry about anything anymore. However, as you spend your life with someone you want to keep forever, you realize that this doesn't happen... sometimes. Just realized that it's all about ups and downs. It's not how many times you were down, having not much money, having difficulties understanding each other, having work-related problems, etc, but it's all about how you stayed together at those moments. Sometimes you just want to break-down and leave everything behind but you realize that's not the life he wants. He wants to fight, he knows everything can be solved, so why don't you?

All I know is I am lucky to have a man that could stand through pressure. He's like strong wood that doesn't burn when you iron. There's nothing to worry about but how to keep him happy and contented. Because if you break-down, he might think he's not enough to keep you up.

Girls, ladies, women should be strong because behind all great men are great women.


Thursday, March 29, 2012


If Manila is a girl, I would tell her: "I thought I knew you". I missed this place and I just want to continually miss it so I'm moving out. It's just another empty bottle floating out into the ocean. It's just something called chasing cars. We literally chase cars here. Hehe!

The best part is, My Tiani got to meet my folks. I could say that he got so well with them. They like him! Another best thing that happened is that we had the chance to build our relationship and bring it to the next level. We proved to ourselves that what we have is strong.. stronger than what we thought.

I just still can't believe that we're having our second year. It was like, "me? being spontaneous for a long time?!". I still can't believe myself but I'm so HAPPPPYYY this way. At last, someone that I can call MINE. Someone that can contain me. Someone to reason out my existence.

Love doesn't end when the sun falls down, it only gets a better beginning. :)