Wednesday, April 21, 2010


Pregnancy Horror and Random rant

(Cafe at Night by Vincent Van Gogh) -> i love this painting

April 19, 2010

9:57 pm on the clock (advanced 20 mins.)

Last day, my team leader and my former thesis adviser (who's currently pregnant) were talking about pregnancy. They described how it is to be pregnant. All I get are scary connotations from my team leader who told us about his wife's pregnancy. I cannot add up to the conversation because I cannot relate. But only one thing that comes into my mind - it was horrible. Imagine a baby inside your body! Bbbrrrr.. The thought of it paralyzes my spine.

Oh well, I'm so glad I'm not counted as one of teenage pregnancy case in the world, not a guy has ever touched me and I'm so proud of it. See, I cannot really understand those who "accidentally" makes a baby. For me it was a very selfish thing to bring a child into this world full of war and hunger, giving the fact that the parents are unprepared. But who am I to judge. I'm just so glad that not a man could fool me regarding that stuff. Oh, stupid men. Boys, guys, men - they're just all the same. They break your heart, makes you happy, break your heart and makes you happy, they could either make you or break you, a very boring thing, they're so predictable. I memorize their anatomy, I'm familiar with their psychology, and all I can say is that they're plain boring. But how I'd love them :P. It's unbelievable how they give their powers to women to use it against them. They're all like children, having a strong heart yet stupid.

Oh! I should get a sleep now. But I don't want to 'coz I know I'll be dreaming weird scary dreams again. My nights were just full of nightmares.. huhu... It's been more than a month now when I start to dream real bad dreams. It wakes me in the middle of night, sweating and feeling real scared. No kidding. Then I go to work at day pretending not a dream of grungy stuff ever occured. Sometimes I think I'm sleeping with enemies: my bed that bruises my muscles, depression, stress, confusion and hormonal imbalance. I think I'm manic depressed. :(

Oh well, gotta sleep. Joomla! seminar tomorrow. It feels so lovely to sleep tonight because it's cold...

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  1. Anonymous said... April 21, 2010 at 7:59 PM

    I could understand the sentiment. either some guy already broke your heart or you broke his. either way, it can make you bitter about love or even life sometimes... you can rant about us boys, guys and men... but you couldn't live without us! ;-)


  2. Kimberly said... April 21, 2010 at 8:16 PM

    I always had vision of 'Alien' (the movie) during my pregancies.

  3. jet MUSIC said... April 21, 2010 at 10:23 PM

    @Anonymous: haha... u'r right, women may just deny but it'll feel horrible without men! :))

    @Kimberly: wow, really..that scares me.. thanks for visiting my site and posting a comment! :)

  4. Travis said... April 25, 2010 at 8:43 PM

    Yeah, we're all the same...that really holds a lot of truth.

  5. Californian said... April 25, 2010 at 11:39 PM

    This restaurant picture is awesome. I wish I could draw like this.

  6. jet MUSIC said... April 26, 2010 at 12:29 AM

    @Travis: thank you for droppin a comment :)
    @Californian: yeap, i luv this artwork too ^__^ thanks for droppin by :)

  7. Just said... May 1, 2010 at 2:28 PM

    Cute blog but as a girl I can't agree with your comments about guys. They aren't stupid, and it doesn't mean you're clever to play games with their bodies and minds... just sounds a bit immature and manipulative!

  8. jet MUSIC said... May 3, 2010 at 6:12 PM

    @Just: ahhaha...well, that's my opinion about them XD thanks for the comment! :)